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Okay. We’re doing this.

Oh my God. We’re doing this. It’s happening. It’s happening.

Can you believe this? We’ve been talking about this for like a year. I know. And here we are

in our, yeah. Comfy. Yeah. Couch and the big comfy couch. I can, that was gold. Golden. That was gold. Um, so I. Put a couple of questions in here for you because there are things I don’t know about you. Okay. Yeah. Let’s do it. And with 20 years of friendship, I’m like, I feel like we should have this conversation.

So you know, I’m scared. I’m just kidding. Don’t be scared. And obviously like if it’s too much, please be like, um, skip. Skip. Okay. I’m all skip this shit. We’ll just roll right over that one. Yeah. Okay. So what did you want to do growing up? Ooh, that’s a good question. Like job. Yeah. Like work. Mm hmm. Honestly?

Probably. Like truly. Yeah. I have no idea. What? Like dead serious. Like, you know, when people ask you like, what’s your favorite movie? What’s your favorite song? Yeah. What’s your favorite book? Yeah. No, I, so I get, I do not have a lot of favorites. Same Z’s there, I feel like everybody has a thing, but like, you don’t have a thing and that’s okay.

No, I like, no, I just, so I think for me it was about like, it wasn’t about what I did. It was the outcome of that. Like I knew I wanted to make good money. Okay. I knew I wanted to live in a decent house. I knew I wanted to have a family. Okay. I knew I wanted to be married. I knew I wanted kids. Like I knew all of those things.

And I knew I didn’t want to be a stay at home mom, but I knew I wanted to work. Yeah. So in order to get all of those things, I had to find a job that could afford me all those things. Yeah. And you did. I did. You climbed the corporate ladder literally from brand zero. Yeah. With no college under your belt and you’re killing it.

You are killing it. Zero. Yeah, girl. No, you’re killing it. You can do it. You can do it. Okay. So I mean, I guess I’ll just counter like I’ll just answer same Z’s. Um, so, I wanted to be a veterinarian from day one, that’s literally the only thing I ever wanted to do.

So I didn’t do that,

which is okay. I,

I always, we always had animals cause you know, I grew up on 10 acres. We had horses, cows, uh, we had a goat, Odie Goatie, um, and I was never allowed to have a pig. I always wanted a pig, but my brothers did 4 H and they always ended up eating their pig or selling it to somebody and they ate their pig, but I wasn’t going to eat my pig.

So for Daryl, it was a pointless, It, he said it was a pointless animal to have around because we aren’t getting anything out of it. I’m like, okay, there’s your old school mentality. Which is fine because we had dogs and cats and oh wait, like let’s back up just one second. Yeah, who’s Darryl? Oh

So Technically, he’s my stepdad but like he’s my dad so he walked me down the aisle he’s been in my life since I was five years old ish give or take a year and I You know, he’s just, he was the father I always needed in my life. He always treated me like the princess that I am because I had three brothers, two stepbrothers and one brother.

And then he’s just like, I, I could never thank him enough for everything that he did for me. Yeah. And like, he didn’t even think about it. Didn’t even think about it. It was just like, we were also his kids and it, it was, it was incredible. To have somebody like that. Cause I couldn’t do that. Yeah. I think like in my heart of hearts, I couldn’t do that.

And maybe I’m a piece of shit, but I don’t want to raise somebody else’s kids. It’s not easy. Right. I know. And girl, a whole different story for a different day, but yeah, I get it. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Okay. So he was just great. He was amazing. He was, he was great. Like, he still is great. We talk three times a week.

I take care of his dog when he goes out of town and is working. And why he’s still working at 70? He just turned 70. He needs to quit. Yeah. He needs to sell his shit and quit. It’s time to rest. Yeah. He needs, well, he needs to like, Rebuilt his Bronco. That’s what he wants to do. Cause I asked him, I was like, what would you do?

He’s like, I’d rebuild my Bronco. And I was like, you have a garage. You have space to do that. Yeah. Um, it’s fine. So, so anyways, vet. Yes. So veterinarian always had animals growing up. Always loved it. Always, always had something. I always had a Guinea. I had a Guinea pig. I had a rat. I had a gerbil at one point.

It was. Great. So animals were like my number one starting as a child. Like I was always drawn to animals. I always wanted to be with them. I always would talk to them like they were humans. Like they would answer me. And I, honestly, I think I had like this fantasy of really being Really being Dr. Doolittle, like wildest dream, Dr.

Doolittle, I can talk to animals. Yeah. Yes. Wildest dream. Um, that being a pop artist. Oh, okay.

For real though. Okay. I can’t.

See, I mean, my parents said I could dream, but they were also very realistic with me on those expectations. My mom was like, babe, you can do whatever you want to do whenever you want to do it. Like that’s how I grew up. The power was always in my hands. So of course I’m unrealistic also because Disney movies, but that’s for another conversation too.

Oh my God. Yeah. Okay. So veterinarian. And then I went the vet tech route for the last 16 years of my life. Um, I quit my job June of last year. And it changed my life for the better. Like I’m so much happier. My aura is happier. My body’s happier. My mind is happier. My aura, my, like everything about me, my frequencies higher, you know, like I’m with he, I’m my own vibe now.

And your nails are back. Yes. The nails are back. Nails are back. So yeah. Okay. Next question. Let’s fucking do this shit. This keeps getting closer and closer to my mouth. It’s slowly migrating towards me because it’s on the lean pattern. Lean, lean with it, Rob. Okay. So I’m going to dive deep real quick. Oh God, I’m scared.

What is your biggest fear? Biggest fear? Yeah. Being alone. Hands down. Easy answer. Really? Real quick. Yes. Do you think that you’re codependent?

A little bit, for sure. Okay. I think a little bit of codependence is healthy as long as it’s mutually understood. Yeah. Yeah. You know? Yeah. Um, I, so. Being alone. Wow. I would have never guessed that. Really? For real. Like, this is why I’m asking these things because I didn’t know. Yes. Oh my God. So I think. Um, part of it comes from like, I was at home alone, alone a lot growing up, like by myself, me and my sister.

Cause your parents were working. Working. Yeah. And working multiple jobs. Like they worked in the restaurant, restaurant and hotel industry. Right. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Hospitality 101. They had to work dinner. Yeah. So. And weekends. Yeah. Holidays sometimes. Holidays. Holidays. I remember having to wake up. On Christmas morning, sometimes at like two or three o’clock in the morning to be able to open gifts with my dad before he had to go to work.

Yeah. Yeah. So, um, there’s that. And then I think there is in like late elementary school, early middle school, I got. Picked on and bullied a lot. And so it was like, felt very lonely for a good part of like my adolescent growing up, like, and that stage of your life is so awkward as it is. Um, like that’s always really stuck with me.

And so feeling alone in that aspect too. Ayyy. I know. Yeah. Oh honey. Which is why like friends are so important to me and like community and like my parents always had friends over just like I do. And so like I wanted my kids to have that to know there’s like always a group of people there for you no matter what.

Yeah. And it doesn’t have to be your immediate family or even people, you know, directly related to you. It can be best friends, can be aunties like us, you know? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Exactly. Wow. Okay. Yeah. So can I be honest with you? I didn’t think about this beforehand because I didn’t, I thought you were going to have your own questions.

Kayla did not have her own questions. So my biggest fear, and this might be trigger warning for some people, but is getting raped and living.

Like I’d rather have them kill me after, or during, so that I don’t have to live it the rest of my life. Isn’t that fucking morbid? Yeah, that’s really bad. That’s my biggest fear. Yeah. Welcome to a lot of people’s reality. I know. And like, that’s, yeah, yeah, it’s sad. It’s insane. It’s, I think it’s like the people.

You have to recover like that. Yeah. That recovery is so hard and I think for a lot of women, sex is already so mental. Mm-Hmm. . Yeah. That, that becomes very difficult. Yeah. Yeah.

Like it that Yeah, that’s ’cause I’ve always been so independent. I’m like, it doesn’t happen unless it’s my idea or I say it’s okay. Yeah. So yeah, getting deep, getting deep, so deep dear Lord, welcome to the shit show, right? The bit, the best, the best shit show. Okay. What is your biggest insecurity? Ooh. Yeah.

My biggest insecurity.

I’m thinking there’s so many that I could pick like, but what’s truly yeah. Yeah. Like pick what, what you think bothers you the most? Like it like comes, it pops into your mind or something triggers it or.

You know what I’m saying? You know what I’m saying? Yeah. I do know what you’re saying. You know what I’m saying? Okay. I know. And I think this is probably most, most prevalent just because it’s most of my life, but my biggest in, I don’t know if this counts. I think my biggest insecurity is like not actually being good at my job.

So like imposter syndrome? Yeah. But that, is that like an insecurity though? I mean, tech, technically I’m not a therapist, but I would say yes. Like I don’t have like a certification or a degree in any way, shape or form. I mean, I’ve been in therapy, you know, on and off for years, but yeah, I think that that counts.

So you think that you like, you feel like you’re a fraud almost? Yeah. Like, and not all the time. Yeah. Right. Not all the time. Yeah. But just. Yeah. It’s something that happens. Yeah. Okay. I get that. Yeah. I felt, I felt like that in my last role. Not, I didn’t have imposter syndrome, but I constantly felt like I wasn’t good enough.

There was always somebody bitching and complaining. There was always somebody that needed something and there was always somebody that was unhappy. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, same. And like, I, and I felt like I was never good enough. Yeah. And that was probably a, the, a huge part of the burnout. Yeah. Yeah. See, no. And it’s not that for me.

Like, cause I love my job for the most part. Right. Um, but it’s like, Oh my God, I’m in this room with all these people. Do I belong here? Like, holy shit. You know, but because 10 years ago I was a waitress at a restaurant, you know what I mean? Like, yeah. So I have that for sure all the time. And then, you know, sometimes I like to self sabotage.

So then there’s that. Okay. Yeah. I feel like we all do sometimes. Yeah, I definitely do too. It’s terrible. Why do we do that? I don’t know. It’s so dumb. It’s so dumb. Like, it’s just like, we’re so much better than that shit. We don’t have time for that shit. Yeah. We gotta, we gotta, it’s getting closer and now it’s touching me.

Uh, you need to answer the question, ma’am. Oh, my bad. Okay. So biggest insecurity,

my belly.

Yeah. Like I just my belly. Yeah. Sorry. I don’t mean to laugh. Like I’m not like, no, it’s okay. You’re good. It’s cause you probably thought it was going to be something deeper. Maybe. I don’t know. Yeah. I just, it’s just, it’s not, it’s not my friend. So I try to, I try to like show it off more. So that’s, I, and I like the way that crop tops and like jeans look on me or like tights or, you know, leggings or whatever.

And like, I’m there for a crop top and leggings. Like that is my go to outfit, even though it makes me very insecure. It’s yeah, I would have never guessed that to be honest with you. Oh, okay. Well, I mean, is that good? Yeah. Okay. I mean, I think so. Yeah. I feel that. Yeah. Cause I mean, what else? And the thing is, is like, I wouldn’t do like liposuction.

Like that’s insane. Right? Like, no, I need to work this off. If I really want it gone, I need to work it off. That’s how I feel. Like I put it on, I should have to work it off. Like, I feel like it’s. Not, Oh, I’m going to say, I’m going to get controversial cheating. I feel like it’s cheating. Yeah. I feel like it’s cheating, but I feel like I’m cheating myself.

Like I feel like I should have to listen. If you had millions of dollars, get real. Oh, for, but, but I’d also have a personal trainer and I would have a chef and like, I probably. I probably would like still like dress the same, but I would just be a smaller size

for real. So, yeah, no, this guy, the Barry. Um, okay.

Okay. So what inspires you? To do what you do every day. Like what inspires you to get outta bed? Mm. Yeah. Um, . Yeah. I have a funny story about this question though. Oh. Um, kind of similar to this question, but I’m gonna answer it the same way. I answered the other question. I got this, a very similar question.

Asked to me, uh, the first time I applied, have the job that I have now, um, and. When I answered the question, I got so emotional, I started crying and two people in the interview started crying. I was like so embarrassed because I’m sitting here in this interview crying. Oh my God. Anyways. But you got the job.

Uh, not that time actually. Oh, you were too emotional. No, they ended up like not, like they didn’t hire anybody. Oh. Essentially, yeah. Oh, okay. Um, but yeah, the second time I did get the job. Yeah, girl. Um, so what gets me out of bed every morning? Uh, Is being able to like provide the life that I have for my daughter and to show her that women are more than capable of doing anything that men are.

And I think for me, I work in a very male dominated industry and I’m in leadership and that’s already male dominated and being able to be a woman in a room full of men, uh, my daughter sees that every day, you know, cause I work from home and so she sees that part of me. And so I want to be that for her.

And I want to be that role model for her because I didn’t necessarily have that growing up, you know? So, yeah. Yeah. Um, what did it remind me what your mom did? Can, are you okay if I ask? Cause she was in the military. She was in the Navy. No, she was in the coast guard for a little bit, but that was like before she had kids.

Okay. Um, she, Worked. Well, she did a lot of different things. She actually was a radio host for a little while in Okinawa, Japan. Oh, in English? Um, I don’t know, she might’ve done both. I know she spoke Japanese, like a little bit of Japanese, but yeah, anyways, um, she worked in the restaurant and service industry her entire life.

Um, and then when she stopped working, she was like a general manager or manager. I don’t know. Uh, for like a TGI Fridays. Oh, okay. And then she stopped working cause she hurt her back and then it all went downhill.

No, I’m laughing, I’m sorry. No, it’s yeah. We laugh to cope with the pain. Yeah, we laugh to cope with the pain. Um, and then she like went back to college for like movie industry stuff and worked on like a few. Movies, like just small things and, um, some music videos like, uh, Portugal, the man when they like very first came out and she did one of theirs.

Uh, I can’t remember who else. No, but that’s awesome. Jim Jones. Oh, okay. The rapper. Sure. Yeah. So that’s what she did. And then, I don’t know, by the time she passed away, she was doing door dash or something like that. All right. So one of the reasons we wanted to start this podcast was, and the, the name of it is called, she did her best because Kayla and I have lost our mothers in the last five years.

And. Our mothers were very complicated humans, um, but they also like literally loved us to death. To death. Smothered us. Too much. They were too hard on us. A lot of times because I feel like they were reliving themselves a little bit. So yeah, so that’s one of the reasons we wanted to start this because I, but also like our mothers did some pretty cool shit.

Yeah. Like my mom wasn’t all bad, right? Yeah, no, of course not. And the thing is, is we loved our moms. I just didn’t like the second part of my life with her and that’s okay. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Like I had a pretty decent childhood with, you know, her as a mom, at least from what I can remember, you know, everybody has different memories.

So, um, but yeah, it’s, and mine was opposite. My childhood was rough. Yeah. My adulthood got easier. Yeah. I mean, in the end, I, the relationship with me and my mom, I think it just is, was what it was, you know, it wasn’t good, it wasn’t bad. Um, I didn’t talk to her every day or every week even, but there wasn’t any anger or resentment or anything.

So. That’s good. Yeah. Do you feel like therapy helped with that? Um, you know, honestly, I think I was at peace with that very early on. Okay. Because I think I was at peace with that before. Oh. She passed away. That’s even better. Yeah. Like I had to be okay with the type of relationship that we had. Um, if she were to pass away tomorrow type of mentality, you know, and so I think I had to work through that a long time ago, to be honest with you, because I mean, my mom was only 60 when she passed away, but I expected it many, many, many, many, many times before same.

My mom was 58. Yeah. So. Yeah. No, I thought my mom, my mom had technically died when I was in sixth grade. She literally, they pronounced her dead twice. Yeah. And then got her back. So like everything since then is like, well, she could die at any moment. And I knew in high school that she, that she wouldn’t be at my wedding.

Yeah. I knew it then. I remember saying it out loud then. And yet I didn’t get married until I was like 32, 33. So, yeah.

Yeah. Oh, moms. Oh, the moms. Yeah. I can’t. I just hope my daughter never says that about me. Oh, she will. Oh, my mother. You know what, though, is she will. Oh, I know. And it’s okay. Yeah. But you guys are best friends. Yeah. Yeah. So she’ll say it at some point. Yeah. One day. Yeah. But she’ll always come back. She’ll always come back around.

Okay. Where did that, where was it? Where was I? Oh, what inspires you to do what you do? Okay. Um, I’m feeling lack of inspiration lately, but yet I feel like I’m changing. So it’s a weird, it’s a weird parallel to be living on. Yeah. Like, I feel like I’m being pulled in a couple different directions. I. Get up every day because truly I like to like be out in the sunshine and When I get up like if I can walk outside at some point before I leave for work or in the morning I’ll come downstairs and walk and I just I walk outside.

I’m like, hmm, you know Like I feel like a little like buzz go through me and I feel so much better. It’s so weird You sound like my husband he dies from for a nice day and a cigar outside, like dies for that. I like, I love coming over here and hanging out and smoking with you outside and sitting, just sitting outside in your backyard.

It’s so nice. Very. Yeah. So like I live, I live for that. Like I live to just see the sunshine every day. I feel like, and that’s so weird, but also I, I live because I like where I’m at in my life. And. I’m living a life that I always wanted to live. Like I live, I have all this beautiful light in my house. I have all these beautiful plants.

I, you know, like I live to take care of my plants. Like my little planties give me so much. Yeah, that’s great. Yeah. They give me so much joy. So, but then also here we are, you know, maybe, maybe not. Hopefully have a baby at some point. So, yeah, it’s a. What inspires me? The sunshine inspires me. I like it. You hippie.

Yeah, I’m so fucking crunchy. It’s

It’s true I am a crunchy I feel like I’m like a really clean crunchy though clean crunchy Yeah, like you at least shower. Yeah, I shower daily That’s great. I don’t wash my hair daily. It’s like every three to five days. Love it. Ish. Um, okay. So when you get up in the morning, what is your routine? Oh God. I have the worst routine ever.

Is it because it’s sporadic or is it like non existent or is it? Chaotic? No. Uh, I, no. Honestly. Okay. I really suck at waking up in the morning. Like I’m a child, like a teenager. Oh, you’re a brat. I am a brat. Like you need ice thrown on you and your alarm goes off 17 times. Worse. I don’t set an alarm.

Why? My husband wakes me up. Oh, what time? Um, six 30, seven o’clock ish, um, and he’s gonna love this. He usually just softly wakes me up and we have like a little lamp in our room. That’s not like super bright. It’s just like, is softer. Yeah. So it’s not harsh. And so he turns that on and that like wakes me up.

This is adorable. By the way, I had no idea. Your husband was so romantic. He’s not romantic. And he’s going to be like,

he’s going to be like, you’re just proving that you’re a spoiled ass bitch. I mean, I, I mean, I am too. So, um, so. And then I just like slowly wake up while he’s in the shower. Like I hear him showering and I just kind of lay in bed. That’s adorable. Then I sometimes get out of bed, make sure Elliana’s awake and like start getting ready for work.

Is she like you waking up? No, she wakes up really easily. Oh, good. But since I’ve been working from home, I legit. Like don’t do my makeup and don’t do my hair and hardly get dressed because we have a very casual work environment and I take full advantage of it and it’s not great. But anyways, here we are.

I get extra sleep because I used to wake up at five 30 in the morning. Um, yeah,

Yeah, I do that. Uh, sometimes I will wake up and just lay in bed and work from my phone. Um, I’m feeling real spicy. I’ll wake up early enough to work out. Wow. That does not, has not happened very often lately. That’s fine. Um, yeah. And then. That’s pretty much it. My husband works from home too. And he goes downstairs and does his thing.

And my kid does her own thing because she’s 14 and can. Yeah. And almost 14. Well, by the time this airs, she will be 14. Oh my gosh. Um, I’m over here with nothing. Um, I’m almost done. Yay. Um, but yeah, so then I like see my dog come upstairs and start working. Yay. Okay. Do you like wash your face, brush your teeth?

Oh, like that in depth? I mean, yeah. Like do you get coffee? I go pee. I brush my teeth. I put my contacts in. I wash my face, I brush my hair, I get dressed, um, I go downstairs usually and get like a drink. Uh, Dan has recently stopped drinking coffee, so we’ve been doing tea. Oh, what kind of tea are you doing?

Like hot tea, just any, like black. Green. Okay. Do you like chai or anything? Like I do sometimes if I’m feeling spicy. Okay. But we don’t have any right now. So I’ve been drinking, um, those can’t some can tea, like green. Okay. Minty. Okay. I can’t remember what it’s called. Okay. But how are you feeling not doing coffee?

Oh, I’m good. Okay. Dan’s the one. You don’t rely on it. No. Okay. No, not at all. You do love your. I do love my energy drinks. You love your energy drinks. But like, honestly, I don’t love it for the energy because I truly don’t think it does anything. Like I just don’t feel a difference most times. Sometimes it works.

Um, I like the flavor of Red Bull. Like I really, I genuinely do. And I know a lot of people don’t, but I genuinely like the flavor of Red Bull. Yeah. Yeah. Like red. I got sick on. Yeah. And I literally haven’t been able to drink Jaeger or Red Bull since then. And so, but like the flavored ones, yeah, they’re okay, but I don’t energy drinks.

They make me jittery and like shaky and I sweat perfusely like it’s not even natural. Like obviously it’s the sweat. So I think I’m kind of caffeine sensitive. So gotcha. Yeah. Well, you don’t drink coffee or tea. I do tea in the morning, uh, tea. Cause that’s the way to go. So matcha matcha. Um, okay. So my routine, you’re so funny.

My routine is the worst. Cause I don’t really have one. I just like do whatever. Yeah. I have, I have like a routine. No, I get up P P’s always, but I’ve been waking up since The hormone therapy started a month ish ago. I have been getting up at like between 3 and 6 a. m. to pee. And then my alarm goes off at 7 30, but my husband gets up usually by seven ish.

So I’m, I hear him turn the shower on and I start to wake up that way. He doesn’t wake me up though. Cause I, Asked him, please don’t wake me up. If I do not wake up on my own, I would love to sleep. Kay, thanks. So he only does it on the weekends, but like my work day. And so I get up and then I wash my face.

I brush my teeth. I actually brush my teeth first, then wash my face. Same. Because I don’t want dirty, Teeth. I just can’t stand the way my mouth tastes. Yeah, it’s yeah, it’s terrible. I’m with you. I’m so with you. I can’t function. Yeah. I’m like, nope. Okay. Brush the teefees and then I get dressed and this all goes in like a.

Slow manner. It takes me about an hour to get ready in the morning, dear Lord. Yeah, it does. Well, cause I don’t want to rush and like, I see, I do. I want to get ready in like five minutes. No, I, I don’t know. Let’s go. Let’s go. I don’t got time for this. I used to be like that when I worked my last job. Cause I was, I had to wake up at like six o’clock in the morning and I didn’t literally didn’t have time.

And I like to sleep, like you wake up early, even on the weekends. Yeah. No, I can sleep until nine, 10 o’clock. Yeah, no, I can’t. I love my sleep. Eight o’clock is a really big stretch. Unless we go to bed late, which we normally, we, we don’t, yeah, miss, yeah, we’re in bed by 10, 8 o’clock, 8 p. m. a couple of weekends ago, and you’re like, it’s my bedtime.

I know. I know. We were there till fucking 1230 or some shit. No, you were not at Amanda’s. Oh, that night we were out till 1230. Yeah. But yeah, no, went the other, that was like 10. That was the, um, Sarah’s birthday talking stick party. Yeah.

Um, and then I get dressed and I get ready and I go downstairs and I make my. I, Chris got me a Keurig and so I ordered pods on Amazon. I fucking, I hate and I love Amazon, just for the record. Um, but I order these pods and they’re chai, but then there’s another like breakfast blend that they have that’s like Earl Grey and Nassam and a couple other ones.

So I do one of those but with a scoop of collagen because I need my proteins. And a little bit of stevia. And then there we are. And then I make a breakfast sandwich and go to work. See, I don’t even eat breakfast. I’m the worst. You should eat breakfast. Yeah, well, I don’t. You probably have an energy drink though.

Sometimes. Told you not good. Yeah. No, Chris, Chris was drinking a lot of kids. Chris was drinking a lot of energy drinks. Yeah. And his doctor, his doctor finally was like, yeah, no, you need to chill out. Cause he was having high blood pressure. And I’m like, babe, I told you that’s what this does. You know, I’m not a doctor, so I don’t have high blood pressure, so me either.

I always have perfect blood pressure all the time. I’m here for it. That might be weed though, too, because I’m always calm. When am I? There you go. Yeah. Which is better for me. Exactly. All right. Do you want to go really deep? What is your end? What’s your end goal? What’s my end goal? End goal. Well, it’s not deep.

I skipped the really deep one. I don’t want to answer it. We’ll get to that another episode. Um, what’s my end goal? Like in life? Yeah. Oh yeah. Great. Um, I want to be able to retire at a semi early age. Okay. Like under 60 please. Same. Um, I don’t think it’ll happen though. And for me, I want to have multiple properties.

But I can just go live and I want to live on the beach and I just want to be with my husband and I want to do all these fun things and I want to travel and I want my kids to like me. Why, why did you, why are you afraid they won’t like you? Oh, well, that’s a story for a different day, but I think that’s an interesting that you threw that in there.

Yeah. Why? No. I think that’s a very, a very common thing for parents to say. I just want my kids to, well, not like me, like want to hang out with you. Yeah. Like when they’re older. Yeah. Like you guys could travel together. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. I think that that’s, I feel like that’s, that makes sense. Cause that’s like the end goal, right?

Like you want your kids to like you. Yeah. Yeah. At the end of it all. Like they don’t have to like me right now. Yeah. I don’t care if you don’t, I don’t care if you like me. Well, yeah, no. Cause they’re, they’re learning how to adult right now. So like once their brains are fully developed, I would like them to like me.

Yeah. Oh, I, I’m sure that they will. We’ll see. We’ll see. I can’t. I can out with you. Um, I think that that’s great with wanting your kids to like you. I think that that’s a really good goal. Yeah. Because maybe some people feel like, Oh, well, once I’m done raising kids, I’m done raising kids. Oh, I mean, I definitely think once I’m done raising kids, I’m done raising kids.

Yeah. But I also won’t put in that much and No. Okay. No. You won’t hovercraft. No. Okay. Um, but I also like, would like to have a fun relationship. Like I think that’s what family’s all about. Yeah. You know? Yeah. It’s enjoying each other’s company. Right. Oh, that’s so much better. I mean, it’s just like, think about it.

It’s just like friendship. Like you don’t want to, you know. Yeah. We were already, we’re already talking about our 40th birthday party or birthday year getaway. Yeah. I’m here for the beach. Please. Please. Anywhere. Mm hmm. The beach. Um, my end goal is if I have kids, that they grow up to be good members of society and like nobody’s a serial killer.

Dan. What I always say, I just want my kids to be contributing members of society. Yeah. Like pay your taxes. Don’t fuck people over, you know, but now that I have friends. Yeah. But like, I don’t have kids. So like right now, my future, my husband’s going to have to tattoo till he dies. So, I can’t, I won’t even get started on retirement, but, um, I don’t even know, like, if I can picture retirement, to be honest with you, because I feel like we’re going to get fucked over.

What do you mean fucked over? By the government. Oh God. Are we going? Are we really going to start this rabbit hole today? No, we don’t have to start this rabbit hole, but like, I just feel like something really disastrous is going to happen. And like, I mean, our parents have felt that way too. I know, but I feel like it’s, we’re going to lose all power.

Like electricity. Oh my God. I mean, I just don’t want us to turn into California and be like rolling blackouts and shit like that. Didn’t that happen in Texas? Yeah. I’m just not there for that. My end goal though, real talk is to be self sustaining. Yeah. If I could buy some land like Northern Arizona, even Colorado is really pretty, but I’d want to be near like a lake.

I’d want to be near water and have my own water source. Ocean only. Ocean. I want to be next to the ocean. Can I ask why? I don’t know. Okay. I don’t know. I grew up on the ocean, like in Monterey. And my dad’s from Brazil and the ocean’s very prevalent there. And just, it just brings me peace. That’s good. My husband and I got engaged on the ocean.

That’s right. I mean, literally on a cruise ship. Yeah. I don’t know. We both just love it. Every time we’re at the beach together, it’s just like nothing It’s great. Yeah. And I just, I don’t know. Vibes. Vibes. Vibes. Island. Time is real. Yeah. Even in places like Florida. Yeah. It’s just so humid. See, I like the humidity.

Ugh. I, the humidity doesn’t like me. I mean, I don’t like it all the time. Like I get it. I just sweat profusely. Humidity sucks, but. I just don’t mind it. Yeah. I sweat profusely. I think I have a problem. Yeah. And the second time you said that,

we might want to get that checked out. I know. Right. Add it to my list. Okay.

Do you have anything you want to ask me? No, like you know, mindful, thoughtful, thought out questions. Yeah. I did. Yeah. Um, okay. Hobbies, hobbies, hobbies. See, that’s another question that like I was just telling you about. What’s your favorite movie? Yeah. You have no, no, you’re like down for what you are down for whatevs.

Yes. And I mean, I guess I have some, but it’s not like typical hobby, right? Like. I enjoy hanging out with my friends and like hosting things and doing things and like checking out new places around town and things like that. But like per se, typical, your typical hobby, I just. Yeah. Now, if I lived by the beach, my hobby would be walking, taking long walks on the beach because I literally would do that and that’s not even to be cheesy.

Yeah. Every day. Yeah. Every single day. I would watch the sunset. Same. But yeah, so. Okay. I get, I feel that. Hobby. Hobby. Um, I don’t really have, I don’t really have a lot of hobbies. Like I feel like I like to try new things. Reading smart books. Oh, that. Oh yeah. Number one hobby. Smutty books. Where’s my book?

Early’s at.

Oh yeah. No. Smutty books is yeah. That’s my big one right now. I do like to hike though. I like, again, the sunshine. I know me and Amy like to hike. Yeah. So getting out. I, that’s gross. I, I know. I, I hate hiking. I know. I’m such a princess. I love it about it. I really am. Let me get on my Peloton. Yeah. Inside, inside in my air conditioning.

I don’t even have it in my garage. It’s in my house. Yeah. No. See, I’m like, and I like working up a little bit of a sweat. It doesn’t bother me. Ugh, I hate sweating. That’s why I swam growing up. Like, I didn’t want to sweat. That makes sense. I know I sound ridiculous, but I’m just being honest. Yeah. Like, I hate sweating.

Then that, honestly, that’s why I fucking hate humidity. I sweat perfusely. Like, it’s, it’s I do not like it. 100 percent dehydration all the time. It gives me I just hate it. And I married the sweatiest man. I feel like, I feel like a lot of men sweat though. Yeah. I feel like that’s normal, but it’s like not cute of girls, super sweaty.

Yeah. Yeah. Fuck them. Um, so hiking. Um, I, as I’ve gotten older, the time that we spend together is means so much more, but I feel like we go through like waves or we’ll hang out a lot and then we’ll take like a month or two off and then we’ll like hang out a lot. And then, but I think that’s just life. It’s life.

Right. And it’s, I love that about us. Yeah. And like, it’s not weird. So like, let’s back up. Yeah. Us. So, me and Ashley have been friends for a really long time, obviously. Um, we went to high school together, uh, but we weren’t really friends in high school, to be clear. Uh. We were friends, like we had. We were acquaintances by groups of friends.

We were friends adjacent. Yeah, friends adjacent. Yeah, we were. And we have a group of friends that we have now been friends with for a really long time as well. And there is five of us and We are like family and we hang out all the time. We have like a yearly Christmas celebration together, A yearly thanks at Kayla’s house.

Of course, a yearly Thanksgiving celebration. Um, we now have some new kids in the mix, some baby kids. Eliana’s birthdays. Always. Yeah, like everybody, always a big. Everybody’s birthday. I mean, so anyways, it’s, um, awesome to have like this core group of people that you’ve been friends with for so long. Women.

Yeah. Women. Like a weird, yeah. It’s, and we’re all so different and bring so many different, like. Things to the table. Yeah. Ideas. Thought processes. Yeah. Opinions. Opinions. Ooh. Do we have some different opinions? Yeah. I mean, we’re all pretty extra, but in our own way, in our own way. Yeah. Yeah. No, I definitely feel her husband’s love us.

Right. Thankfully. Um, but yeah, no, I just, I’m so grateful for this group of women. Yeah. Even though I know we, some of us have some crazy ideas out there and some of us do some crazy stuff. And the rest of the group literally is just like, I love this for you. I would never do this or I hate this for you.

You know, like it’s always, yeah, my hair going shark fishing, you know, that was, you know, but you don’t realize how your friends are going to react until you. Or in a situation where you experience it with them or like expose them to it. And then they’re like, I would have never thought that some of us wouldn’t go for shark fishing.

Oh yeah. No. Yeah. Not for me. And I’m over here like, what’s the biggest thing I can catch? I don’t think so. Bring it in. But yeah, it’s a. It’s, and you know what? I get told by other people that don’t have a group like this, that they’re like, you know, I just don’t have a group of people like you do. And I’m like, huh?

Yeah. Like you don’t realize it. You don’t realize it. How special it is. Yeah. And it’s, and that we still love each other through all of it. Yeah. Different opinions, the different lifestyles, the different, yeah. All of it. Yeah. And, uh, I can’t. So yeah, our group, I can’t with our group. So four of us have been, went to high school together, but we all were not super close in high school.

We all knew of each other or we were friend or some of us were close. Yeah. Yeah. And All of us ended up here together and like all of us are so it’s crazy and yeah, now there’s more girls coming into the mix. There’s always going to be a little mini girl tribe. Yes. There’s always going to be more girls.

I told you if I get pregnant, it’ll be a girl. It’s now recorded. I, maybe I made it back. Well, maybe I’m manifesting it for myself, but I think that I meant to raise a girl. We got through the end goal. That was all my questions. Okay. I love this. I know. Oh, maybe next time I’ll write the questions and then we can.

Yes. There you go. Okay. A little get to know yous. Yeah. And get to know. Scratching the surface. Yeah. Go. It’s going to get deep at some point. We’ll get a little bit more on topic after a couple, get to know yous. Yeah. And we didn’t even cry. I know. I’m so proud of us. I honestly was like, this is going to be therapy and we’re going to cry every single time.

And I’m so glad we didn’t. I know. Look at us. We’re killing it. Yeah. But also another reason we love our husbands. Exactly. Cause we are criers. Yeah. Yeah. My poor husband. I’m here for it. Dear Lord. Yeah. This has been a year in the making as we talked about in the beginning, and we are so grateful to be doing this.

I am so grateful to be doing this because y’all Kayla put everything up in like she made a space in her home. We are her. She fronted all the money for all the gadgets and all the things and her husband’s going to be. Editing it for us. And like, I just want to say how grateful I am to be able to do this.

Like, Oh, I know. I’m so excited. It’s going to be, I hope it’s going to be something that we both needed wanted. It’s just gonna, it’s like our own baby child. We’re going to watch it grow up. Yes, but also therapy session. Yeah. It’s great. But also, you know, just one more reason she did her best. Yeah. Exactly.

Yeah. Never good enough. I know. Never good enough. Ever. Ever. But we tried. Um, I’m excited for episode number two. Me too. Okay. Okay. I’ll see you next time. Okay. Love you. Okay. Love you. Bye bye. Bye.